Fuck knows what's happening to me.  My head has that funny/horrible sensation worse than ever.  I never went to work today either, cited "the shits" as the issue.  But is it fuck.  I can't face it.  People, work all that fuckin' shite.  I've got loads in front of me.  Loads of work needing done, chance to earn decent money, which is getting me down right now.  I know I'm letting a friend of mine down too by not doing the work I said I'd do for his company.

I feel so fuckin' low.  I've been crying all morning over fuck all.  I just feel like I've had enough of feeling like this.  I'm not gonna do anything daft, but I just feel fucked with the whole gig... why does everything have to be such a struggle?  Everything I want to do, everything I know I can acheive... Things that aren't beyond my capabilities.  Why have they all now become like one big mush of shite that hangs over me.  A big collection of fuckin' shite that you can't get a hold of to deal with one thing at a time.  It all just hangs over you, waiting to just drop and fuck you off for good.

I'm struggling so much to keep on top of things at work, but I don't know how to deal with it properly.  Should I go sick and then try and sort myself out without the worry of work.  Which on one hand means that they'll see they can cope without me, but on the other they won't see me being fuckin shite and constantly letting people down.  Or, do I stay and nurture reputation of someone who constantly misses deadlines and doesn't complete the stuff he says he will?  It's a dilemma and no mistake. 

But fuckit... I can't seem to get worked up either way about that whole shite. 

This fuckin' head though.  It's fuckin' getting to me.  It's as bad as it's ever been.  And my leg too, that must be something to do with how I sit or drive or something.  It's fine in the morning, but gets worse as the day goes on.  It's a complete nightmare.  It's fine if I move around and stuff, just if I sit too long it gets unbearably sore.

Ahh fuck knows....  I'm such a moany cunt.  If I can get the screaming in my head for a bit, then I'm sure I'll be fine.

Fuckin Fucky Fuckness in Fucktown.... Cunts...