I'm standing up as I write this, I've had to take to standing at work with this dodgy Sciatica, sore leg business.  It's a fuckin nightmare in all honesty, as soon as I sit for 10 minutes my leg is in agony.

I don't really know why I feel like writing, maybe I just wanting to pass the time as there are 38 minutes to go until I can leave the office.  Realistically I can leave at any time, I'm not convinced anyone will notice. 

I've had proper shit work to do for the last few days along with calls from my boss at around 9pm saying that there was proper shit dropping on us and could I deal with it.  And it hasn't really got any better than that in all honesty. Meaning that I've had to let down PK once again, but what can I do?  I feel shite about the whole thing, but all I can do is try and get it done and dusted over this weekend.  I'm pretty sure if I don't finish it then either him or his boss more likely will tell me just to forget the whole gig.  Which would be the easiest thing for me in all honesty, but would be yet another thing that I've failed at recently.  I can't let it happen.

I've no real plans for the weekend, so it's best that I just get my fuckin head down and get it published.  That's pretty much all that's left.  Getting everything on to the server, making sure the database is all fine and we're away.

Just need to hope no more "brown stuff, hits the whirly thing" (sorry for stealing that Lola).

Been writing and recording loads of shit.  Some might say "shit" is the operative word.  But I don't give a fuck, I love doing it.  And I'm doing it because I wanna do it.  Not for anyone else.  It's fuckin' great.  Went and played guitar with Old Gandalf the other night.  He's a sound old guy, and a really good guitarist.  I played my songs and he played over the top of them, I felt great hearing my "creations" come to life with another musician involved.  It was great.  And really, it's just made me want to do it more, play more, record more... join a band.  Become a fuckin' rockstar...hahaha...

Fuckit...it's great, maybe not a rockstar then...  Maybe a "pub" band.  That'd do... I'd fuckin love to get involved with something like that right now.  I can feel myself getting better too which is good.  I mean in terms of the quality of what I'm writing and as a guitarist.  I think hearing yourself does a lot for self improvement.  I've got the enthusiasm I had when I first picked up the guitar, and it's great.  I feel like a kid again when I pick it up, and the hours just fly past as I belt out song after song, not giving a fuck what anyone thinks.

Proper Liberation my friends...

...just pick up your guitar and play.

“Information is not knowledge.
Knowledge is not wisdom.
Wisdom is not truth.
Truth is not beauty.
Beauty is not love.
Love is not music.
Music is THE BEST.” – Frank Zappa - RIP