So yea, I'm still feeling shit. I've been reading loads of blogs, and thinking about how I want to help people so much. I feel much better within myself when I think that I'm helping someone. It upsets me when there are things that I can't help with. I saw a thing on the news about some wee girl that has leukemia, her mother is chinese and her father is English, so really they need someone with the same background to be able to do a successful bone marrow transplant.
That fuckin' gets to me. A poor wee girl. What the fuck did she ever do to anyone? Yet she has this shite running around her body. It's fucked up. I've been thinking about doing something that really will help people. Volunteer with The Samaritans or something. Fuck knows, I just want to do *something*... I'm not doing it to be some kind of hero. It is completely selfish reasons that I want to do it. I want to have made some kind of fucking impact on people. People? Person...? Fuck knows.... anyone??... Fuckit...who knows.... Made a difference to somebody. Helped them feel a wee bit better about their fuckin existence.
I just need to ride this shit out... How long is it going to take though?... that's the thing. Why can't I just be the proper selfish cunt that I've always perputrated? Fuck everyone else, look after me. Make myself loads of money. Fuck these other cunts. Fuck them...
I really, really miss having a woman. Have I mentioned that? Ha... I miss having someone to sit and watch TV with, to sit on the sofa with a bottle of wine and a takeaway and fall asleep together. To have an argument with over something insignificant and make it up to her by bringing some chocolates and flowers and my wonderful humour. Make her laugh, make her happy... Make her enjoy being with me. I'm a good cunt really, you know that... I think I have something to offer to someone. In saying that, some fuckin bampot told me the other week I was "beautiful, as a concept"... Ehh..... Whit?!... A Concept?! Are you for fuckin' real? And El Concepto was born... A concept... For fuck sake, God take me now....Fuckin' Idiot.
Maybe having no woman isn't so bad, when there is chance you could end up with some fuckin' loonball like that. Regardless of how magic her breasts may be. Fuckin'...Fuck knows. Fuckin' cunts.
I'm a selfish cunt really, wanting to help people so I can make myself feel better. *People* are fuckin' cunts really... Humans... They never fail to disappoint. Fuckin' each other over, doing what it takes to make sure they get ahead. Does anyone know anyone that knows someone that has *never* cheated on their girlfriend/boyfriend? Everyone I know has at least had a snog with someone else. Done something that would devastate their other half, despite the fact that the other half had most likely done the same. We're selfish, horrible cunts...
And in the end, you live and die in your own arms.
Fuckin' great eh?
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